To edit a simple story

How to edit.
How to tell the story.
How to overcome the barriers of the elements that are overcrowding the stage of the untold story.

I guess people are expecting me to produce something good, something great.
Maybe I will, but maybe, just maybe... It will not be what they are looking for.

I need to quiet down the Earth around me.
I need the miracle of inspiration.
Perchance to dream, or live the dream.
Moreover, reality is just a step away from becoming a nightmare.
Well, that is if I lose the grip on what lies ahead.

I want to help whom I can.
I want to rest.

"Rest I need"
But there is a long way for me still.

People have been disappointing, others have been surprising.
All and all, I am betting that I surprise and disappoint in the same amount aswell.

So, maybe, I should just rest a few more hours, and get back to possible things.

The right to pursue happiness

Today I met a couple.
Their story moved me.
A young couple who recently decided to get married after a year long relationship, even though their story had many unique details that lead them to the inevitable conclusion of a formal sense of union, in the presence of their loved ones.
I guess the sentence that striked me the most about their love, has the awareness of the importance of the details in the lives of each other and the impact they have for one another.

The darker side of this beautiful story is the need they have to share it with the ones that matter the most for them, and how it is so difficult to overcome the prejudice that lingers in the ones that do not accept what lies beyond their borders of knowledge - no matter how limited this knowledge might be.
If there is something that I have been learning recently is about uniqueness. Each of us is unique. Each of us has a time of events that occur specifically at a given moment. That moment will be gone, whatever reenactments you might wish to do will not be comparable to that moment.
So, to choose not to attend a specific moment of importance of these two people, will not be possible to repeat in the future. The action of contempt for that moment cannot be erased.
My opinion, is that for the right of happiness all you need to do is being consistent and truthful with yourself and put the action that completes that though it to play. If others have problems accepting their choices, that must not be a block to go fourth.

That being said, it does not mean that the present is in jeopardy, even if moments from the past are lost, because you can always take steps to make mends of what was lost. And although you can't change the impact of your action, you can promote new actions that start to balance what was lost and eventually show the path to recovery.
We have to stand by the people we love and the choices they make for their happiness. It is their life and we are committed to make it as happy as possible.
Whatever dreams may come. this speech of awkard tales is about, if nothing more, recokning with the right of every one to be happy with the choices each one makes as long as no direct harm comes from it. If the harm of another is driven from a self sense of prejudice, then its the person with prejudice who is responsible for "his" pain and not the set of choices.

I expect that this couple may overcome the walls that stand between them and those they love, so that they might enjoy their own sense of happiness in the company of those they love, and should love them back, no matter what their dreams may be

Deadlines

Hurry up mr. student.
Time is ticking, the pressure is rising.
Odd enough, the pressure tends to make me work harder to achieve my goal.
It does not matter that i have a thousand days to deal with my situations, i rarely do not solve them when the time is dreadful close to its end.

What it is about this pressure that is so necessary to have me produce what needs to be done, even though I hate the fact that I am being pressured. But somehow, I am able to do it.
This drives other people crazy, and I think it is not healthy for me.
I wish I could work without coming so close to the dreaded deadlines.

No magic here, only wishful thinking. It does not mean that anything will change.
In fact the only thing that changes is the time to the deadline. It just become shorter! Again!

There are places I will remember all my life

"There are places I'll remember all my life!
Some remain, not forever and some are gone"

To live is to experience.
To those in pain, it must be rather difficult to grasp this concept.
Because pain is such a powerful and disturbing experience that seldom leaves any room for any interpretation other than pain itself.
But believe me that pain is also part of the experience. Through pain we learn that fire can harm and that spikes pinch our skin and that hunger is a slow pain that grows within calling for the self perservation of the one experiencing it.

Fortunately, the world is not made up of feelings such as pain, but instead it is filled with a vast amount of possibilities to experience. Some quite brief others seemingly eternal.
We do not need to move far to experience the wonder of the experience of being alive.
At times, all it takes is to walk on our neighbourhood and try to count to amount of smells, colours, sounds, touches we will encounter.
I guess the most troubling thought of all, is to assume that we take all this for granted.

The experience implies two things:
First the object, person, place, moment must exist or occur or be present
Secondly, we too must be there. It will not matter if it occurs and there is no one there to experience it.

To assume that all that is, will exist forever, is to blindly ignore the value of the uniqueness of each moment.
I accept that somethings will be bad while others will be good.
I will not deny that the relationship of good and bad will depend on the point of view.
After all, everything is relative.
A breakup must be a grief for a person and a relief for another.
A death might be the grief for those that experience the loss, but it may just be the final consequence of being alive which in the relieves us all, with a unique perspective story to tell.

Because it is uncertain if we ever get a second chance to come around, it is best to assume that this time now, is unique and we should make the best of it, with what seems fit. - If I want to read, let me read, if i want to sleep, let me sleep, if i want to experience the grief of a long lost love, let me dwell on the inspired loss of said grief. All is granted, as long as it harms no one. Society does not appreciate that.
But we should not live on just what society expect us to do. After all, societies evolve and they are made by the unique creatures that at a given moment are there to tell the tale.

I will rest now, with the fair conscience that i am doing my best to enjoy my stay here, with you.
I am far too lucky to have been granted the plethora of feelings.
The pains and the rewards
For all that is worth, they make me more human. Nor better nor worse. I evolve just as I have to and hopefully along the way, I too can be a unique experience for you, as undoubtly you are to me.

Some memories

I wish upon myself, to rid of my personal demons.
It is not fair to others that I prey on their souls due to constant insatisfaction of my weiry ill conceptions of the world.

The people that I am attracted to do not have to love me.
I should not get the respect I think I deserve, just because I want to.
Life is far more interesting when I am involved, but it can be interesting if I do not force myself to pay attention.