Delightful deceits of August

This month last year meant the end of a dream.
October after that meant the birth of an illusion
And for Christmas I was painfully free from illusions and dreams.
Reality kicked in 2017, but I still managed to give someone a deceitful illusion for the first half of January.... hurray to me :)

Now, I see myself facing what August will bring.
I was never in love with August. It haunts me with strange memories not pleasant.
I saw fires up close in the peak of the summer in 88.
As a boy, the summer, particularly during this month I would watch all my friends go way with their families for awesome vacations, where I would stay with my folks or would be taken to my grandparents house up North where there was not that much to do. Actually there was, but there were no kids my age to play with. So sometimes I would be bored.
In 2012, I saw my dreams being emptied by mere expressions of boredom.

I am trying to change my attitude towards the summer.
I am giving alone time a break.
So I pick myself and head off to the beach and read there.
As long as August does not trick me again in believing that good things will come, I think I will be fine.
But then, in 2013 I had a gift from Spain. Completely unexpected and dreamy for a few months.
It lasted all the way to February of 2014.
I guess there was no deceit there and it was delightful.

My life is like that delights and deceits.
I expect the best, but then somehow inspire the opportunity to spur its worse.
Is it my fault? Am I just a spitting  machine of platitudes? Empty words for full ideas without merit in a real world?
I wonder. I think I can be delightful in any month. But for some reason... August tends to bring me deceits.
This year, August will take me on a tour for work. That will be the delight. The deceit I will be working in motion - Spoiler alert: I bought Dramamine to avoid car sickness.

good grief. This august might make me want to throw up.
Well, I used to throw up on my way to my grandparents place... and that could happen in August... so no surprise there... but the journey then was deceitful. I wonder how it will be

I will keep you posted!